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Diving In

by - Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Day 1. I’ve gone and done it. Finally, after months (years?) of talking about it, I’m going to start my own business. The idea has been stewing in my brain for a long time. Sometimes, its quiet, like a stone covered in moss, rolling around, bumping into things but never really leaving a mark or making a sound. Other times, its loud, crashing and thrashing and thumping about. In stereo. Its times like that that I can’t concentrate on my “day” job… you know, the one that pays the bills. The one that I was schooled for and have succeeded at and which has allowed me to live a comfortable life in a nice house. The one (if I was silent and listened to my heart) that I really don’t have a passion for.

I’ve always had this conflict (and I’m sure many of you have, too). Do I keep doing what I’m doing just because I’m good at it? Or do I disrupt my life (and that of HandyMan’s) to try something I’m not even sure will survive, let alone thrive? I’ve been looking around for answers. Some bloggers have tackled this question; decor8, design for mankind, and please sir and their readers have given me much food for thought. But it was this old post that really resonated with me. I am already “in the zone” she writes about… opportunities are presenting themselves, key people have confirmed my business idea is a sound one, and there are little “signs” appearing, like markers showing me the path.

Part of the obstacle was my own thinking. I’ve never been able to reconcile my right-brain and left-brain thinking. I’m equal parts creative and practical. I love Excel just as much as I love our mitre saw. I have an MBA in Strategic Management and I’ve written a book about architecture. Adobe InDesign and Microsoft Project both get me excited. I can design a room and I can design a strategic plan. See what I mean? What do you do with that? The problem was I’ve always thought I needed to choose one or the other, and my educational background made that choice very simple. It’s been the corporate life for me for the last 15 years. But then, I had that “A Ha!” moment. Why do I have to choose?

In a world where people are both interior designers and bloggers, writers and artists… a world where people have 2 or 3 jobs to sustain themselves… why can’t I do both? I can. So I am.

Its still in the early stages but my plan will allow me to flex my business mind and surround myself with creative types. But why am I blogging about this when it obviously has nothing to do with renovating or design? Well, they say if you want to make something happen, you need to articulate it – and you folks are the largest audience that will hear me :) As well, if you’re anything like me, you may be reading this blog as a way to feed the need for creativity in your own life. It could be a distraction. It could be something that prompts you to say “oh, I wish I could do that… if I only had the time”. If I have learned anything from my friend Willow, it is that there is no time like the present. So I’m jumping in, taking a dive into the murky waters. Hopefully, I can float.

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  1. Congratulations! What a nice train of thought to read today. Deciding you deserve to take that step is, well, the first step - and everyone, at some point, deserves to take that chance. Best of luck while you start that journey. :)

  2. Congratulations and good luck.

    I totally understand having the pull from both sides of your brain as Im the same way.

    Its wise to jump in while still in the safety of a "real" job. You can test the water without jumping out of the lifeboat :)

    Hope you will share your trials and triumphs here as we're all eager to see you suceed in whatever you do.

  3. Good luck my dear! I've been conflicted in the same way and I'm still reconciling. :) Yay for you in taking the first step! I'm looking forward to hearing how things unfold!

  4. Listen to your heart and dive in! B/c if you never take the plunge, you'll always wonder what-if. And that's worse than any disappointment or fear in my opinion.

    I'm so happy and excited for you!

  5. Marilyn, you are right. We each deserve to take that chance. First steps are always the toughest. Thanks for the well wishes!

  6. Thanks mrs.limestone! I don't think that pull of the two sides will ever go away, but I know I've been neglecting one side for far too long. Love the lifeboat analogy... I will definitely try and stay in the boat as long as I can :)

  7. Phoenix, Freckles Chick - thanks for your encouraging words. I think I've been living with the "What Ifs" for too long already. But today, that changes :)

  8. I totally understand where you are coming from and completely applaud your decision. Being an engineer that is predominantly right brained, means I too can't fit solely on side of the fence. The business/technical side is just as much fun as the design side but find the balance is tough.

    Looking forward to witnessing your meandering journey. :-)

  9. Congratulations! I am also in the midst of trying to "go at it on my own". I'm going 3 jobs and it's definetly tough work.. but if you want it bad enough, it will happen.

  10. Congratulations on starting your new venture! I've been self-employed for the last 13 years and wouldn't trade it in for anything.

    Being practical serves you well once you're business is up and running. Being daring and optimistic serves you well when you're first getting it off the ground. Have fun and best wishes!

  11. Anonymous10:51 AM

    I have so much faith in you. You will achieve your dreams, your passion, and your love of life. Things might seem murky, uncertain, frustrating at times, but it's all part of the journey! Savour each moment, and as they say, listen to your heart. You're a lucky one to have both sides of the brain at excellence :) You'll find a way to combine to two talents to come up with a successful plan :) Might take some long thoughts and planning, but you are a natural born planner and creator!
    You have ALL MY SUPPORT, always and forever. I believe in you!!!
    And thx for your kind mention :)


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